I have been back in England about two weeks now and I’m pleased to report that a lot of good things have happened since I have been home.
New social media
Maybe the least exciting when compared with my other news but is being featured in this blog post because it is something I have wanted to do for a long time. This week I made a YouTube channel that will be dedicated to monthly. You can see my last blogpost for all the information & links on that. I had wanted to make this blog for a long time but never really felt confident enough in myself. Once I made it I found the fun in writing for it. I love planning posts, taking pictures and getting the feedback from people. Similarly, I had wanted to make vlogs for a long time and this week decided I was going to bite the bullet and start filming and editing one. I have realised that as long as I enjoy it I am not going to worry about anything else. Here’s to feeling confident and finding creative outlets.
Getting an internship
Last year I went to a careers fair at my university and found what I wanted to do in life – charity fundraising. This job involves organising fundraising events and being part of the whole process of raising money for whichever charity you work for. I find something very rewarding in this and I also have a weird love of organising things so it’s kind of perfect. I had applied to a few different places in the past few weeks and went to my first interview the other day. It sounded like a wonderful opportunity to gain experience in the sector & everyone in the office seemed lovely. I am happy to report that I was offered the internship on Friday and I start in a few weeks. I am so excited to start my dream job!
This weekend I went back to my university town for the first time in five months. I also saw my best friend for the first time in forever as she was working abroad this summer. Our reunion involved tears, wine & dancing to Taylor Swift. My running team were having a house party as well so I got to hang out with my favourite runners again. It was wonderful but also difficult at the same time. Knowing I can’t be back at university until September is hard to deal with sometimes as I love it there. It’s also very difficult to spend time there without my boyfriend as its where our relationship began and where most of our time together has been spent. I think it was also a time of realisation for those who have not seen me since I’ve been away that I am not quite myself at the moment. Nevertheless with the good things that are to come & with some hard work and help I hope to be back to myself soon.
It’s my last night here in the US. My dad has been here with me for week and we just ordered pizza to our hotel. In 24 hours I’ll be on my way home to my friends, my family & my dogs. There are some people here who it hurts my heart to leave but I have already made plans to see all of them so that makes goodbye a little easier.
I know in one of my last blog posts I said I was going to complete a semester. Things have changed. Things have changed and I’m not ready to talk about it yet. My nearest and dearest know what’s up and right now that’s how I want to keep it. Just until I’m back on my feet again.
After I feel more like myself again I do want to write about it and I will, if I can. For now I’m going to apologise for the lack of blog posts. I may write some posts in the next few weeks that are unrelated and then write a full explanation. Or I might not write anything at all for a while. I don’t really know.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful week & I’ll see you all soon
So this is going to be a little hard to write.
For those of you who are close to me you know that I made the decision that American college wasn’t for me. The best way I can describe how I feel about my experience was to liken it to a bad relationship. You may love the person, you may have great memories with them but they’re not good for you and it’s unhealthy to stay with them. I am having a great semester at college. I have made friends for life, had experiences I’ll never forget and lived a whole new chapter of my life. But that chapter is just shorter than I originally planned it to be. Everyone has their limits and a semester is mine. It’s like being at a party – everyone else might be able to handle 5 tequila shots whilst you can only do 1. And it’s okay to only do 1 if that means you don’t end up throwing up or crying or not enjoying yourself. Funnily enough I’ve done all three of those things during my semester abroad.
I don’t want this to put anyone off going abroad because I had a great time and I’m sad that I couldn’t stay longer. I’ve been gearing up for this year abroad for two years. I’ve spent two years planning and getting excited about it so trust me when I say that I did not make this decision lightly. However, I think the whole thing has taught me a big life lesson – listen to your heart and make the best decision for you. This whole way experience has shown me that I love to travel but hey maybe living in a different country isn’t right for me and that’s great, now I don’t have to look into houses anywhere other than England!
I am not the kind of person to just get a bar job and wait until next September to start my final year back at my English university. I have always been very driven and have always pushed myself so these next few months will be no different. I have a list as long as my arm of things I want to accomplish in the months after Christmas. These include running a half marathon, redecorating my room, finding an internship (hopefully in the charity sector), volunteering, reading more books, researching for my dissertation (because I’m never going to give myself a break from education) and travelling. That’s right, I’m headed back to America in May to travel for a month with my boyfriend. That’s been our plan for a long time and I’m not letting anything change that.
I want to thank all of the amazing people in my life – I sound like I’m accepting an Oscar now sorry! But really you have been amazing. There hasn’t been a single person that’s told me I’m crazy, there’s just been a lot of support and excitement that I’m coming home. Also thanks to anyone else who reads this blog and have said encouraging things and taken an interest in my posts.
So there we go. That’s my decision. I’m finishing a semester, then I’m on a serious self development mission for 4 months, then I’m travelling, then I’m starting my final year at university. This blog will continue. My adventures will continue.
I need a glass of wine after writing that, someone put aside a bottle for me to come home to in two months.