april favourites

Aaah, it feels good to be back in the swing of blogging & doing a good ol’ monthly favourites

read

The Broken Trilogy: I started this series last year & then forgot about it whilst I was waiting for the other two books to be released. About a month ago I suddenly got back into the swing of reading for pleasure rather than just for uni & rediscovered this series. It’s a dystopian story that follows a society that becomes jeopardized by an evil ruler obsessed with astrology & how this affects the ‘harmony’ of the country.

listen

i have made a playlist of all the tunes i have been loving this month here

jacob banks: my brother introduced me to him just in time for his new EP to be released ‘the boy who cried freedom’ although i also recommend listening to his album ‘the paradox’ as well. The man has such a smooth voice and his songs are full of soul.

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will joseph cook: his debut album ‘sweet dreamer’ is the ultimate summer soundtrack

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john mayer: john will always remind me of days when me & my friends used to listen to his songs on repeat when we were feeling lovesick. His new album ‘the search for everything’ is full of great songs, particularly ‘love on the weekend’ which is the ultimate description of the honeymoon period of a relationship.

classic fm: this may be a bit of a grandma thing to enjoy but since inheriting an old radio my dad didn’t want i have had this on in the background whilst revising and it is just brilliant. I even got a shoutout for requesting a song the other day (claim to fame)

watch

two youtubers for you this month: cartia mallan & leena norms

cartia just seems like one of those souls you just want to talk to for hours about life and i like that.

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leena just did 40 days of videos for lent and they are all about finding yourself, creativity & growing up. I recommend binge watching them.


line of duty: get on bbc iplayer right now (if you live in the UK or go on netflix and watch the earlier series) and watch this. It is a drama all about corrupt policemen and it has so many twists and turns that I never manage to figure out ‘who done it’ until the final moments of the finale.

miscellaneous

journal writing: a stream of sub-conscious filling pages of pretty notebooks. I use journal prompts from themessyheads or just write my thoughts down.

comment pods: I recently joined an instagram comment pod & love it! Women supporting and building up other women. What’s not to like?

i took this & will joseph cook liked it hehe

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tips for productive revision

It’s that time of year again ~ exam time! Whether you are studying for your GCSEs, A Levels or like me have the final exams of your university career looming, here are some hopefully helpful tips to get you through long study sessions.

  1. The Pomodoro Technique

This technique consists of working for 25 minutes and then taking a 10 minute break. It has been shown that your brain can only concentrate properly for 25 minutes before it stops taking information in effectively. I love this technique and it has massively improved my productivity

2. Do not disturb

Use that feature on your phone, you know the one with the moon sign. It stops all social media, texts and calls from lighting up your screen unless they are in your favourites list. It’s one of the best features for boosting your productivity, use it!

3. Create a calming work environment

My university library is very detrimental to my revision mainly because they do not let you consume any food or drink (except water) and it is either arctic or sahara desert with no in between. Instead of subjecting myself to this uncomfortable form of studying I have turned my room into a little sanctuary. Candles, a little succulent plant, a comfortable blanket and some cosy slippers and I am all set for a few hours studying. I am lucky to live in a quiet neighborhood but if you don’t have this luxury you can definitely create a little sanctuary in the library too. For example, my friend brings a little cactus with her to keep her company during a hardcore essay writing session.

4. Take a walk

I’m not talking 10k here, I’m talking 15 minutes tops just getting some fresh air into your lungs. It allows your brain a little quiet time and being in nature is one of the best things you can do when you are stressed.

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my little beam of light

I wrote this post a few weeks ago but only just felt strong enough to post it.

I feel like my life has centred around loss recently. It seems that every other weekend I have been going back to my hometown for a funeral or because of a family situation and so I’ve not only lost people from my life but also lost the normality of life.

 

As I write this I am back on the sofa at home, trying to ignore the clock because time is ticking on and it is getting ever closer to 4.30. The vet appointment. The time that I say goodbye to the one friend that has been there in my darkest hours & shared my happiest times.

 

To some a dog is just a pet but Maisy has always been so much more than that to me. My parents bought her for me when my mum was just recovering from her first battle with cancer. She was this little bundle of energy and happiness that I could focus on training and looking after rather than worrying about my mum, which at 11 years old you shouldn’t have to do. I remember when she was really little she ripped a hole in my favourite shirt and I was mad for about 30 seconds but after that just said I hadn’t liked the shirt anyway because I just couldn’t be angry at this little fluff ball.

 

When my mum died I felt so isolated. People at school didn’t get it and my family was also trying to cope with the loss so Maisy was really the only comfort that I had. Taking her for long walks and cuddling on my bed with her was all I really lived for when my mental health problems reared their ugly head last year and I couldn’t have asked for a better best friend. People who know me well have all fallen in love with her too and everyone knows how much I adore her and how special she is to me. Not a day has gone by since the moment she came into my life that I haven’t thought about her and how much I love her.

 

So when people say she’s just a dog I will point them to this post because she really wasn’t JUST a dog. She’s been a support system, a best friend and truly the greatest dog I have ever had.

I’m not sure whether there will be a time in the future when I don’t feel like my life is centred around loss. I hope there is. But for now all I can do is keep my chin up.

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holy moly!

You guessed it, a month to the day & I am back in this tiny little corner of the internet ready to ramble like never before. 

I am actually typing up a recording of myself rambling whilst out on a walk on Easter Sunday, in an attempt to get some fresh air & give myself a chance to listen to John Mayer’s new album.

I think this break has done me the world of good as I’m feeling a lot more authentic and more focused on what I want to write & how to make my blog the safe space I want it to be rather than having a one track mind that only cared about numbers.

The past couple of weeks have been interesting, a lot has gone on, some of which I alluded to in my post a month ago and some of which has happened since. Most heartbreakingly, my little labrador Maisy was unfortunately found to have two huge un-treatable tumors which meant having to say an extremely hard goodbye. There will be a post up soon in tribute to her & explaining just how much that dog did for me & mental health.

I also want to talk more about spirituality which I know will make some people instantly click off this tab & run away but like I said, I want this to be an authentic and safe space to discuss a range of topics. Whilst I am not religious I do believe in the power of the universe and right now, I have this little flame inside me that wants to explore spirituality a little more. This really came about after watching Cartia Mallan’s video: My Journey with Spirituality & Astrology. It’s definitely a very personal journey but I want to share little snippets to help others who are on this similar train & are totally overwhelmed and maybe even a little embarrassed about the whole thing. I certainly know people in my life who I don’t feel comfortable talking to about this kind of thing so I’m sure others do too.

At this point in the recording the wind picked up & the threat of rain was heavy so I took it as my cue.

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Thank you for all your support whilst I have been away & I look forward to writing again soon

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the end of the blog?

I’ve been thinking about going on a bit of a hiatus with COMPLETELYRAMBLING. This is, in part, because of my upcoming university deadlines but it is mainly because I have fallen out of love with blogging recently. Rather than relaxing me I feel like I have become a bit too obsessed with stats & that was never what this space was supposed to be about.

I still have a lot to say about mental health but I don’t feel like I’m in a place where I can share any of it at the moment. It’s all a bit too close at the moment & talking about it on the internet wouldn’t be great for anyone.

I’m still going to be online (all my links below) but right now I’m saving all of my thoughts for an outlet outside of the internet. If I’m hit with any inspiration then I’m sure I will be back BUT for now I want to live offline for a while.

 

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remember when

Whilst on a dog walk recently, I had this overwhelming sense of nostalgia for days at school. Those frilly cotton socks I wore to school, pencil cases full to the brim, a red satchel I wore with pride and a hug at the end of the day.

Inevitably when I think of being little I think about my mum because my only memories of her are from when I was young. Usually, it means that my nostalgia is always tinged with sadness. This time was a little different. Through therapy I am trying to learn how to remember my mum without feeling like I will end up in a heap on the floor. So this time I tried this out.

I remembered how she used to wait by the door for my bus to drop me off and when I walked in the door she would have a slice of cake and a cup of tea (with 2 sugars) on the table for me. At the time I never thought about it but now I know how kind that little gesture was. I would dump my bag and coat and take off my school shoes. I would cuddle the dogs and chat about my day.

Memories like these are so important when you lose someone.

I don’t really know where I was going with the post. I guess I’m trying to say, appreciate the little things people do for you and I guess I’m also trying to say, it’s okay to be sad when you lose someone but don’t let that be all you hold onto. Remember the happy times because they are the most precious treasure you have.

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march goals

  1. Trying to meditate at least three times a week. This seems to be a regular goal that crops up whenever I write posts like this one and I never seem to stick to it. I have decided that trying to meditate every day just isn’t feasible at the moment so I’m hoping reducing it to 5 minutes, 3 times a week might mean that I actually achieve it. For me, it is super important to look after my mind, especially as this upcoming month sees a LOT of potentially stressful deadlines looming (see goal no.3).
  2.  Stepping up my instagram game. I really want to try and grow my engagement on Instagram this month by uploading more regularly and putting a little more thought into what I post.
  3. This month is going to see a LOT of deadlines. I’m talking two essays, two presentations AND a dissertation chapter… welcome to final year! So this goal, whilst a little boring, is a necessary one. Staying organised, keeping on top of things, and getting all the assignments done. Right now I am feeling pretty confident about it all as I’m not the kind of person that is capable of leaving things until the last minute. As of right now I am ahead of schedule so as long as I can keep up this pace I’m sure I will be fine

Those are my three main goals for this month. Have you got anything that you want to achieve this month?

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